An apology...


Hello, all...

I just wanted to write a sort of apology because I haven't really done any of the stuff I said I'd do following the finale release. And also just generally being kinda absent and/or all over the place. I won't get into it too much but I haven't been doing super great since the launch. Actually since even before it. I had two deaths in the family and thought I was going to be laid off from my job. Then the launch came and even though I knew it was gonna be bad afterwards with the post-launch slump, it hit me even harder than I could have imagined, and I entered one of the worst depressive episodes I've had in my life. I've had some better days on and off recently but I still just am generally struggling and my self-worth has been at rock bottom. Some inflammatory hate mail and aphobic messages hasn't helped. The only sparks of joy I can get lately come from DD2!Genzy and the occasional self-indulgent drawing. Now, also, the job anxiety has returned as my hours are going to be severely cut and/or I'll lose my job after all within the next few months...

I do promise to eventually get to some of the stuff I said I would do, such as the Arc 5 OST. I think perhaps I don't need to make that ending guide as no one seems to have had any issues getting the endings they want. I'm also incredibly sorry because there are many itch comments I haven't replied to yet... I feel really awful about it. I always like to respond with detailed follow-ups when people leave such lovely detailed comments but I've just had this sort of mental block recently. I promise I will get to them even if it takes me a while, so please forgive me. I will try to start answering some of them slowly.

Ofc I also hope to get back to actually producing stuff again, too. It just may take me a little bit longer. I do get some sparks of creativity still but it's all been for pointless self-indulgent stuff not for actually good stuff DKALJSDKFA But hopefully a bit more time will help me start to recoup some of my motivation and creative energy and then I'll be able to start messing around with some of the ideas I have for new projects.

I am sorry for this downer devlog. I normally try to stay upbeat and positive and keep all of my mental health and RL stuff out of things I post (the social media scene already has enough hate and negativity as is...). But I was just feeling really guilty about the last month and the things I haven't been keeping up with, so I at least wanted to give an explanation. I do want to thank everyone though that has stuck around even when I've been a flake and also to everyone who is still even excited about the game and chars. Everyone's support means the world 💕

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